It seems that just when you think your life is in a good place and you are moving along fine, content in what you are doing, that that is when it suddenly gets turned upside down. I have learned over the years that life does not turn out the way that you plan. I always thought I would finish college but that I would get married at about the same time. Well here I am about to embark on several new journeys and all by myself. It is a scary thing. Why do changes (or as I see them, trials) always seem to come in multiples. I have to make some decisions in my life very soon and it is terrifying me. Yeah, it's not life or death, but it may affect my future. I am going to be teaching second grade in the fall...a very scary journey all in itself. I don't even know what I am going to teach them. I have to grow up and become an adult. I remember my teachers and they seem like they were so much older than I am now. I don't feel old enough to be a teacher-sometimes I feel like I am not much older than the second graders. So now I have to go out in the work force and have a real job with a real salary.
I also have to think about my living arrangements. I have been content in Provo for five years. I have only known home in Idaho and Provo. There has been nothing else. So the thought of moving to an unknown city with roommates that I have never met is terrifying. I would have to leave all my five years of friends so that I could be closer to where I am teaching. It only makes sense to move up there since gas is astronomical these days. But it would take an amazing leap of faith. But I suppose that you have to jump and take the risk or you will never grow. It would be an amazing growing experience for me. I think that when we are content in our lives we are not growing and gaining in experience. The Lord always makes sure that we are put in circumstances to get us out of our ruts..hence, change in our lives. So I guess I have to make these decisions even though I am not sure that I am up to it. Well we'll see what happens...I'll keep ya updated.
3 comments:
Heather, I think you're awesome. Just thought you should know.
You're totally up to it, Heather! Listen, I'm turning 30 this year. That kind of freaks me out, because I see your mom as perpetually 28 (why 28? I don't know). So how am I 30? When did I grow up? I'll let you in on a secret I've learned recently. . . we're all faking it. Even your grandpa told me he forgets often that he's not 19 anymore; that's still how he feels. We just jump in and do what we have to do. Just start. . . soon you'll find that it's all natural and you're not holding your breath anymore.
You can do this! You'll be awesome!
See you Thursday?
OK...I don't know about anyone else but I'd like to know of some of the changes. When are you going to update your blog??? :)
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